Here's what I thought was going to happen. I thought we were going to go over the results of the MRI I had done a month ago, and he was going to tell us what our options are in moving forward. I thought I was going to get some answers.
Here's what actually happened. This appointment was just a consultation, a new patient setup. I've already seen this doctor and filled out the appropriate paper work 2 months ago. But now where we go from here is back to square one. This doctor wants to run all the tests we've already had done again. Now I am officially his patient so let's go back to square one. He didn't tell me anything about the results of the MRI. He said that's not why we're here today and we'll discuss it when it becomes an issue. So what the hell did I just have done to me over the last 4 months? I've fought offices trying to get someone to talk to me and even just set up appointments because no one would ever call me back. I feel like so much time has been wasted and I can't do a thing about it. I feel like my body is betraying me, failing me. I realize I'm not dying and there are worse positions to be in, but I feel like my body is retaliating against me for some unknown mistreatment in past years. I just want some answers. I can't do this unknown cause bullshit. Why? Why is my body going through this? What is the issue? If science can fix it, shouldn't science be able to tell me the why?
I'm emotionally exhausted. Maybe a cuppa would help.
