As the new year approaches, many others like myself will be writing New Year's Resolutions, reflections and general musing regarding life over the last year. So with that preface, I write my own for your amusement.
2010 came in just as it did the year before that. I surrounded myself with friends and a facade of fun to combat the depression. It worked for a while. I let myself believe a relationship with a friend had the potential to be more than friendship, but the realization of that misinterpretation led to the best part of my year.
I had become increasingly discouraged with my love life. I could get sex when and if I wanted it. I wasn't sad because I wasn't getting any, I was sad because I wasn't finding love. I had friends, family, my youth kids that all gave me a reason to be thankful for those relationships. But I still felt an emptiness inside me. So I joined match.com in hopes of finding love. I had just looked around before, but this time I joined. I perused profile after profile, had become discouraged again by finding maybes, after no's, after hell no's. But then I saw one that made my heart flutter. So I made a move, and emailed this person. To my surprise, I got a response. Little did I know that that response would lead to now.
This New Year's I spent the night with my mother, father, grandmother, and fiancee. That response has become my fiancee. I met the man with whom I want to spend the rest of my life, the man with whom I want to start a family. I met the man who gives me comfort and excitement. With this I resolve to let him know just how much he means to me everyday, no exceptions.
Right as this man and I began to date, my back flared up again. I had not had issues for 4 years, yet this year I had to deal with it again. I went through chiropractic care only to see minimal results. I tried acupuncture for pain and depression to receive magnificent results. This last Christmas I spent the holiday with my fiancee's family doing what they love, skiing. Though I went snowboarding. I loved it. I also crashed and burned big time. I compressed my spine like a bungee cord on a snow drift. I am back to one hundred percent, now, but it was touch and go for a couple days.
My resolution from this is no matter how much my back hurts, I will push myself to every limit possible. I will not let pain keep me from experiencing the life I have been given.
Life is too short to make excuses for not fulfilling your dreams or potential. 2011 is the year to go out and get it. Whatever it is.
